do-san ga nokoshita atsui omoi, ka-san ga kureta ano manazashi

Tuesday, March 4, 2008, 12:14 AM

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Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted.

what im posting doesnt really make sense. yeah, you wouldnt have expected this post from someone like samantha chia ming qi.

so we are getting back our PPR tomorrow. so i know i flunked physics. so tomorrow we not only have morning jog, but PE to top the things-i-dread-about-wednesday list. so, tomorrow is going to be some shit. and stations of the cross on friday with the AV peeps followed by mass after that. i hope that i can make it. since that day happens to be the last day of the school term, lets just say that is normally the busiest day. another dont-talk-to-me-cant-you-see-im-rushing-like-crazy day. take it slow, people.

so i suddenly felt reflective just before catechism class on sunday. i was studying my physics and ting1 xie3 combined and i felt so darn tired when i decided to live my life to the fullest. what a crappy scenario but oh wells. i used to think i already lived my life to the fullest, but that chinese passage we were deciphering really spoke to me. so she cannot see, hear, or say anything. and here i am yakking like its nobody's business. think twice before saying anything.

so doreen started her first day at drew and apier(spelling error) yesterday. so it was the same law firm where our cousin daniel chia was at. so she was crying in the morning again. and so she had a few comments when she reached home. which got me thinking again. people as smart and wanted as doreen can get asked to accept an internship at a law firm. which makes me wonder, am i studying enough? obviously not. the fact that i still use the computer proves that point. and it doesnt help that im a tv addict. concentrate on what's important.

when will i ever be truly able to tell mum and dad that i am doing the best i can and working to my maximum potential? i really wonder. if i can focus, concentrate all my energy, all my thoughts to the central part of my brain. right now, all the thoughts are pretty messed up now, i need to sort them up into files. yes, lots of files. orgainsed. thats good, that may help. maybe then, then, then i will be able to do well.

the grade you get back from your PPR counts for sure. but the satisfaction you get from knowing you have truly done your very best can never be counted with whatever units those scientists invent. i must do my best. sure, i can do that.

cheers